No Fireworks Compare to the Sparkle....

It would be so cool if you and I could find a 4th of July function that we could take the kayak out for. Watch the fireworks from the water kinda thing...

Listen to It...It's More than a Beat!!

So many of these sermons regard guarding our hearts. Where is your heart E?...some still in regards to me? You are in mine fo'sho!! God speaks to us there, it's at the center of so much Spiritual energy that all that inhabit it such be taken seriously and with care. I feel like you are listening more to people some of which are even Believers, than you re to your precious HEART!!

No Pants to Laugh Off...

So I can't remember what all it was, but do you recall being in bed at the Charleston Harbor Marina (half naked of course) and laughing our butts off!! I know the TV was on, hmmm just can't place it. It was a race weekend either I'd remember that part. Hmmm...

Outdoors Fun!!...Mrs 3rd Overall!!

So on my first solo backpacking I went into the Uwharrire National Forests. Well this is near Lake Badin ...we could kayak to camp!! The kayak should be able to hold everything, but we should do a few test runs to see what amounts we ca haul. The other is camp and just take the yak to water daily. The spot I setup on was close to some trails so running and mtb are optional...Mrs. 3rd Overall!!!

Best Dad Day...Hands Down!!

Love these pictures!! I hate that the two of you had to try and bond and exsist through my issues. It has it highs and lows, but the über positive impression was left. You have to be honest and admit she enjoyed more things with you than your kids. Not intending on that to be a jab but it's the truth. Ilook forward to celebrating these any many more holidays with you two!! 

Good to GREAT!!

Today could have been a really really good for us. Habitat for Humanity, I'm driving up to LKN Campus for setup. Followed by the event I emailed you...maybe you're planning on meeting me there😯!! Lol!! All wrapping up in a night with each other, emerced with each other.

You said WE have the potential to be a great couple. Notice I typed 'really, really good'...reason? What we need to be GREAT IS GOD!! That's in all we do Elise...

What a View...

My fingers in your hair, the salted humid air.

The taste of you soft sun kissed skin (that spot right there), the warm abundant sun to sunset.

Fingers exploring your curves, navigating the shoreline.

Your sculpted legs giving way to you sexy feet, natural lay of the sand dunes.

Pausing to kiss me and touch me, nothing...nothing compares!!

Miss you E...

Yikes!!...it's Just Tuesday!!

Don't know why today was a little tougher. I think it comes from having a need to talk to you and being completely cut off. Not knowing why either still spins me. Raced and kissed me at the finish line...chatted and walked and talked. You reached and held my head and kissed me!! And now we're at this place...because I changed jobs.

Rock the Boat!!

I don't know if you were at church yesterday but that sermon was on point...yet again!! Our relationship was my boat and your boat too. This stress isn't as bad as what so many are going through in life but for me (U.S.) I really think God wanted us to get out of or sinful ways and trusting in what that relationship was...should have been trusting in a relationship with Him!!

Another week without you. Got the text...nothing more no explanation. Cool song some lyrics fit, some lyrics make me cringe, some lyrics make me want to stop by and see you...if you're home.

If a person gets a deep gash that's bleeding...not looking at it doesn't stop the bleeding. It only bleeds more and the person does more to not see the gash. Turn their head, close their eyes, cover their eyes, eventually might even gouge their eyes out. Ultimately forsaking and losing a part of themselves because of not seeing what was in front of them.

One Text is Better than None I Guess...

Just got your text...

C'mon call or text that song is not going to be good enough for whatever point you want to make.

Getting better and easing into not using this blog. Mainly due to it not being a conversation format thus I'm able to not treat it like email or texting...which you don't reply to anyway...HA!!

I remember dancing with you at your class reunion...

I remember the day you stopped 4play to start Alicia Keys on your laptop...

I remember kissing you a certain way after lunch to make flutter and say "Don't kiss me that way...now..."

How could you question how I felt for you? Is he going to have the same effect?

HA NEVER!!

Missing you.....

Some days I  can think through scenarios where this has all fallen apart. When replay the sound of you openly signing my name....

Was it with grief over me being annoying despite not hearing from me for a month. Or the kindness through Christ to support your Mission, despite negative human emotions. Where your next words  going to be... Leave me alone. I still can't. I'm seeing someone. This is so difficult. Or the Top 10 Classic Hit "I Don't Need or Want Anything from You". LOL!!

Some days filled with the zeal and excitement about seeing you again and talking and hanging out again. Hoping that we can openly and willingly share Christ and grow there first and foremost!! I am really trying to live by Faith and not by sight. Cause right now I not seeing nothing!! Lol!! 

I run...I hear the voices and tone of all those who steered you away from me. 

I'm not running from them....I'm running to them and wanting to run through them!!

Then I get done and pray....lol!!

Later E...

If a Picture is Worth...then Wow!!

Was dialing through some of our pictures...just a few and that totaled thousands 20-30GB in one file easy. Someone made the ignorant comment we didn't have anything binding so you walking away should be no issue. Im not in the business of stating all the obvious comments that have absolutely zero freaking merit but that one did. You don't even want to talk to me...dare I say you can't even talk to me.

Nothing binding huh?