Another week without you. Got the text...nothing more no explanation. Cool song some lyrics fit, some lyrics make me cringe, some lyrics make me want to stop by and see you...if you're home.

If a person gets a deep gash that's bleeding...not looking at it doesn't stop the bleeding. It only bleeds more and the person does more to not see the gash. Turn their head, close their eyes, cover their eyes, eventually might even gouge their eyes out. Ultimately forsaking and losing a part of themselves because of not seeing what was in front of them.

One Text is Better than None I Guess...

Just got your text...

C'mon call or text that song is not going to be good enough for whatever point you want to make.

Getting better and easing into not using this blog. Mainly due to it not being a conversation format thus I'm able to not treat it like email or texting...which you don't reply to anyway...HA!!

I remember dancing with you at your class reunion...

I remember the day you stopped 4play to start Alicia Keys on your laptop...

I remember kissing you a certain way after lunch to make flutter and say "Don't kiss me that way...now..."

How could you question how I felt for you? Is he going to have the same effect?

HA NEVER!!

Missing you.....

Some days I  can think through scenarios where this has all fallen apart. When replay the sound of you openly signing my name....

Was it with grief over me being annoying despite not hearing from me for a month. Or the kindness through Christ to support your Mission, despite negative human emotions. Where your next words  going to be... Leave me alone. I still can't. I'm seeing someone. This is so difficult. Or the Top 10 Classic Hit "I Don't Need or Want Anything from You". LOL!!

Some days filled with the zeal and excitement about seeing you again and talking and hanging out again. Hoping that we can openly and willingly share Christ and grow there first and foremost!! I am really trying to live by Faith and not by sight. Cause right now I not seeing nothing!! Lol!! 

I run...I hear the voices and tone of all those who steered you away from me. 

I'm not running from them....I'm running to them and wanting to run through them!!

Then I get done and pray....lol!!

Later E...

If a Picture is Worth...then Wow!!

Was dialing through some of our pictures...just a few and that totaled thousands 20-30GB in one file easy. Someone made the ignorant comment we didn't have anything binding so you walking away should be no issue. Im not in the business of stating all the obvious comments that have absolutely zero freaking merit but that one did. You don't even want to talk to me...dare I say you can't even talk to me.

Nothing binding huh?